第18节
【】aschallengeinhereyes.”iosay,thehel
seesit,youdalreadyleft.hervingoninresponse.san
francisstifledher.sheuldntpaintthere.sherated,
andbored.”
”ifshe.therehings
sheuldhavedoneanddidnt.”hetoldhielftohis
eorplace.butkatherineevanshadsheda
festeringscab.
hestoodhisground.”shebladbecauseshewasbored”
katherinegaveasllshrug.”theonlypersoodothings
hiyyouaround.”
”no,ieorplace,buthell,this
friendofraent,andbeyondkeeping
hisvoiceloletthechargegounanswered.”iwas
ytailofftobuildasuessfulprae,sothatiuld
keepushousedandfedand,p.s.,letherpainthout
eaingney.sheoneyfroerparents.iedto
givehereverythingithoughtshedeserved.”enoughavoiside
hiaid,buttherestofhiidntlisten.”inthehelldidi
askofhertodressupandgooutoeaweek
uchgodonlykneenoughasakid.shewas
raiseddressingup.sheulddothepartythinghhereyes
closed.
besides,sheknee,
youhavetobeseen.
””shek,”katherinehetravelingbotheredher
re.
tohearhertell,youoreoftenthannot.”jack
tuedah,thentuedbathevery
beat.”raeabout
you.iye”
”itsexingbewildered,”andyouasked.
israchelsfriend.iloveherandthegirls.theyrelike
faly.
idonthurt.”
”andidoeoff,hekeptgoing.
ifsilytospitekatherineevans,jaktohisdaughterslike
glue.hestayedatrae,tooktheo
breakfastinthecafeteria,retuedtosithrachel
again,tooktheolunbethaneurologist
frohecity,oseeracheltheday.
ofthedi,the
nurseheadingtheeindy
on.shepness,and
thickglasses,buttheretoher,anendearingshyness.
shespokesloedkindasuldbe.ifkarabates
eacher,dyonhegirlshungonherevery
word.
”keeptalking,”shetoldthe”tellheryouvebeendoing.”
shelookedatrachel.”tellherjokes.tellheryouresad.or
angry.orscared.”shelookedatthegirlsagain.”youlaugh,or
althings.shelluandthe”
”ifanthaasked.
dystudiedheroportant.see
”thoughshehegirls,jacklooked.shewas
ssagingrachelsshoulder,hadbeendoingittheeshewas
talking.
”yourtherfeels.tougisaonstrated
easuredvents.”dontbeafraidtoliftherhand.orbend
herknee.
orbrushherhair.orveherfingersortoes.”sheletthatsink
in,thenasked,”doesshehaveafavoritest”hopeseyeslit.
”lilyofthevalley.”
”youuldbringsoin.”
”anditllhelp
””itthurt.”unfortunately,dyfortwas
shortterndspeently,jackedto
knoonoonewassaying.
hedranksochffeetostayahatbylateafteoonhewas
startingtoshake.herinearrivedhseveralfriends,he
barelyheardtheintrodus.assoonastheyweredone,heushered
thegirlstothecar.
theyhadbarelyhittheroadanthasaid,
”sodooogeneral,andheoo
tired.
hooanswer
”ifies.”
”shesnotgoingtodie.”
”thenifsheliesthereforaakingcareofus”
”.”
”beredshe
hadsaidearlieraboutnotlivinginsanfrancis.thisthe
titochallengeher,notaboutaquandarysofardoheroad,not
tontionanirobableone.rachelighteven
beassageontheesayingthatshealreadyhad,bytheti
theygotho.
”bigsur.”thelogicalshortrune.hethinkingabout
orrow,
illdriveupforclotheswas
horrified.”gotoschool.”
”yousing
up
””yes,but”illpickyouupatschool.”siheschoolinbig
surel.frobr>
ontereyinutedrive.”you
speofthedayatthehospital.”
”likeireallyrateonclasses””ireallythinkyou
shouldtry.ireallythinkyourtheryouto.ireally
thinkaintainasenseofnorlcy.”
”nothingisnorl.”itruthsobluntlystatedthatheed
tleher.”look,yourapttoenohis
goonforever.”
”hoehopessllvoicefroehind.
hecaughthereyeintherearvieirror.”becauseit.your
therisyoungahy.shellheal.shell.”
”youdontknoanthaargued.
”no.buteshesgoing
todie””noijustdontknoessof
thingsypiic
”proforeshoppingthis
e,”jack
said.
shesaggedintotheseatandlookedoutthe.
youdonthaveti.youneverhaveti.”
”illketi.”
”likeyoudetifyasticsets”hergyasticsets.
shehadntdonegyastiyears,notsincehe
divorce.
therehadbeehene
intheissedreandre.shehadbeenyoung.he
eered.hehatshedid,and
.
”thisisdifferent,”wasall
...
seesit,youdalreadyleft.hervingoninresponse.san
francisstifledher.sheuldntpaintthere.sherated,
andbored.”
”ifshe.therehings
sheuldhavedoneanddidnt.”hetoldhielftohis
eorplace.butkatherineevanshadsheda
festeringscab.
hestoodhisground.”shebladbecauseshewasbored”
katherinegaveasllshrug.”theonlypersoodothings
hiyyouaround.”
”no,ieorplace,buthell,this
friendofraent,andbeyondkeeping
hisvoiceloletthechargegounanswered.”iwas
ytailofftobuildasuessfulprae,sothatiuld
keepushousedandfedand,p.s.,letherpainthout
eaingney.sheoneyfroerparents.iedto
givehereverythingithoughtshedeserved.”enoughavoiside
hiaid,buttherestofhiidntlisten.”inthehelldidi
askofhertodressupandgooutoeaweek
uchgodonlykneenoughasakid.shewas
raiseddressingup.sheulddothepartythinghhereyes
closed.
besides,sheknee,
youhavetobeseen.
””shek,”katherinehetravelingbotheredher
re.
tohearhertell,youoreoftenthannot.”jack
tuedah,thentuedbathevery
beat.”raeabout
you.iye”
”itsexingbewildered,”andyouasked.
israchelsfriend.iloveherandthegirls.theyrelike
faly.
idonthurt.”
”andidoeoff,hekeptgoing.
ifsilytospitekatherineevans,jaktohisdaughterslike
glue.hestayedatrae,tooktheo
breakfastinthecafeteria,retuedtosithrachel
again,tooktheolunbethaneurologist
frohecity,oseeracheltheday.
ofthedi,the
nurseheadingtheeindy
on.shepness,and
thickglasses,buttheretoher,anendearingshyness.
shespokesloedkindasuldbe.ifkarabates
eacher,dyonhegirlshungonherevery
word.
”keeptalking,”shetoldthe”tellheryouvebeendoing.”
shelookedatrachel.”tellherjokes.tellheryouresad.or
angry.orscared.”shelookedatthegirlsagain.”youlaugh,or
althings.shelluandthe”
”ifanthaasked.
dystudiedheroportant.see
”thoughshehegirls,jacklooked.shewas
ssagingrachelsshoulder,hadbeendoingittheeshewas
talking.
”yourtherfeels.tougisaonstrated
easuredvents.”dontbeafraidtoliftherhand.orbend
herknee.
orbrushherhair.orveherfingersortoes.”sheletthatsink
in,thenasked,”doesshehaveafavoritest”hopeseyeslit.
”lilyofthevalley.”
”youuldbringsoin.”
”anditllhelp
””itthurt.”unfortunately,dyfortwas
shortterndspeently,jackedto
knoonoonewassaying.
hedranksochffeetostayahatbylateafteoonhewas
startingtoshake.herinearrivedhseveralfriends,he
barelyheardtheintrodus.assoonastheyweredone,heushered
thegirlstothecar.
theyhadbarelyhittheroadanthasaid,
”sodooogeneral,andheoo
tired.
hooanswer
”ifies.”
”shesnotgoingtodie.”
”thenifsheliesthereforaakingcareofus”
”.”
”beredshe
hadsaidearlieraboutnotlivinginsanfrancis.thisthe
titochallengeher,notaboutaquandarysofardoheroad,not
tontionanirobableone.rachelighteven
beassageontheesayingthatshealreadyhad,bytheti
theygotho.
”bigsur.”thelogicalshortrune.hethinkingabout
orrow,
illdriveupforclotheswas
horrified.”gotoschool.”
”yousing
up
””yes,but”illpickyouupatschool.”siheschoolinbig
surel.frobr>
ontereyinutedrive.”you
speofthedayatthehospital.”
”likeireallyrateonclasses””ireallythinkyou
shouldtry.ireallythinkyourtheryouto.ireally
thinkaintainasenseofnorlcy.”
”nothingisnorl.”itruthsobluntlystatedthatheed
tleher.”look,yourapttoenohis
goonforever.”
”hoehopessllvoicefroehind.
hecaughthereyeintherearvieirror.”becauseit.your
therisyoungahy.shellheal.shell.”
”youdontknoanthaargued.
”no.buteshesgoing
todie””noijustdontknoessof
thingsypiic
”proforeshoppingthis
e,”jack
said.
shesaggedintotheseatandlookedoutthe.
youdonthaveti.youneverhaveti.”
”illketi.”
”likeyoudetifyasticsets”hergyasticsets.
shehadntdonegyastiyears,notsincehe
divorce.
therehadbeehene
intheissedreandre.shehadbeenyoung.he
eered.hehatshedid,and
.
”thisisdifferent,”wasall
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