第41节
hihheknotogo””sure.”his
voiiledback.”ae”
hopesatonherbedrooloor.abooklayopenbesideher,butshewas
studyingheradeher,hadifferent
onth.guineverep
littleball,kingpreciousfewsounds.
radli,sheroseandoutiogfeet
tofiher.heorthekit,
othersbedrooshefoundhin
thestudio.
hesfolded.hewas
deepiration,studyingvasesthathehadlineduponthe
oppositesideoftheroo
shestoodquietlybythedoor,tellingherselfthatybesheshould
leaveandebacklater.butshealk.
”hi,sie,”hesaidandlookedatherfeet.”he
boots
””inrooareyoudoing”sheasked.
”lookingatyourthersstuff.shesgood.”
”areyoureallygoingtofinishherpictures””idontknowas
justathought.otherbeangrye
ifidid”hopedidntthinkso.shehadnteverheardrachelsay
anythingbadaboutjack.saoldhershejustlistening,but
shewas.
”daddy””,sorrohink
ysgoingtosjusttakinglohanihad
hopeditwould.”
”uch.theyreing,too.theyre
pleasedthatshesinghatifrachel
gettihebadstuffsheodoh
hercat.sheraisedherarsothatsheuldrubherfa
guineveresfur.itething
right.
”guineveresgettinge
anyre.iclap,andshedoesuherhead.shesgoingto
diesoon,daddy.”hepushedathe,and
rubbedguineverebetheears.”issheinpain””no.shed
ohroathurt.shehadtoforce
the.”daddy,llidohoughtfora
nute.”youllbesad.youllgrieveforher.”that
hopeant.”ean,itjust...
throlikeshehibones.”helookedcross.”you
shouldntbeplish
anything.thiselikeshesreadytodie.”but
hopefelttheurgencyofit.”sheis.ikno,daddy.ifeel
it.”
”yourejustscared.”
”no,”sheinsisted.”itshappening.
soigoingtodo”hefrourossnowas
unsure.”doyoutodo””itoburyher.”he
sinute.sheuld
seethathedidntknoantha.hedidnt
thinktheheydid.
”okay,”hesaid,surprisingher.”youburyher.therestbea
petceterysohopedid
cetery.shedidnttohavetogodrivingtoseeguinevere.she
edtheearby,edguioknohatshewasnearby.
”orheforest,”jacksaid,glangoutthe
window.
”souch,hope
thought,nodding.
”done,”hesaidandpulledherclose.
shedidntsayanythingforanutebecauseherthroathurtagain.
thistiitwaswrong.hedid
uand.
thatanthecared.
”daddy”shehear.”youleaveus
alone,
annoyedhinough,heuldaand
youhavetogobaitytoeoostay
here.”
”i.”
”doyouprose””iprose.”shesighed.
evely,allestbitofbreath,shesaid,”ilove
you.”hedidntahischeekagainstthetopofher
head,andinthatinstant,thektuedbadshebelieved.
ovedfrohespot
herthenightbefore.frightened,sheleanedclose,
closeenoughsothatthecath.”guin”she
heheekhafiip.the
sllestventagainstherfinger,sheletoutabreath.
shedrapedanarightlyarouandlayclose,thinking,i
loveyou,guinevere,iloveyou,ahewhisperofananswering
purr.thenitstopped.forseveralnutes,hopedidntve.
”guin
”sherokedthecatsheadandedforapurr,
strokedagain,edagain.herehing,sheburiedher
headinguineveresolingfuraocry.
”hope”jaalled,ingtothedoor.”areyouup”gulping
sobsbubbledupfroheyonly
greloser,hopingshewaswrong,hoping
sheter.sheuldjeelit,agiant
etiness,abighole,ahugealoneness.
”sie”hetouchedherhead.”hope,isit”hetouchedthe
cat,lefthishandthereanute,andjusthinkingthat
shedidntknosheodobecauseeverythingsheloved
alsaroundherandguinevereboth,and
leanedoverclose.
hedidntsayanything,justsatthereshelteringtheandwhen
santhaaskinghey
goingtoday.guineverejustdied.”
”iorry,hope,”santhasaid,softlynoloseby.
”oldher.”totakethebus
today
”hopedidnthearanansartedgagain,because
theantha
theonesheedjustthen.theonesheedwasholding
hertight.
ifaoldjackthataandhisfirbr>
tingfireoplankstobuilda
tinyffinforacat,hetted.butitseed
likethebestthingtodo.
hopesatonthegroundnearby.guineverehewashwo
babyafghanthatrarochetedandthathopehadslepthfor
thefirsteightyearsofherlife.tattersandall,itwasherprized
possession.onceshe,shestoppedg.she
heldherbuhoughitweregold.
jarto
nail.
allffinwasfinished,hedugagr
...
voiiledback.”ae”
hopesatonherbedrooloor.abooklayopenbesideher,butshewas
studyingheradeher,hadifferent
onth.guineverep
littleball,kingpreciousfewsounds.
radli,sheroseandoutiogfeet
tofiher.heorthekit,
othersbedrooshefoundhin
thestudio.
hesfolded.hewas
deepiration,studyingvasesthathehadlineduponthe
oppositesideoftheroo
shestoodquietlybythedoor,tellingherselfthatybesheshould
leaveandebacklater.butshealk.
”hi,sie,”hesaidandlookedatherfeet.”he
boots
””inrooareyoudoing”sheasked.
”lookingatyourthersstuff.shesgood.”
”areyoureallygoingtofinishherpictures””idontknowas
justathought.otherbeangrye
ifidid”hopedidntthinkso.shehadnteverheardrachelsay
anythingbadaboutjack.saoldhershejustlistening,but
shewas.
”daddy””,sorrohink
ysgoingtosjusttakinglohanihad
hopeditwould.”
”uch.theyreing,too.theyre
pleasedthatshesinghatifrachel
gettihebadstuffsheodoh
hercat.sheraisedherarsothatsheuldrubherfa
guineveresfur.itething
right.
”guineveresgettinge
anyre.iclap,andshedoesuherhead.shesgoingto
diesoon,daddy.”hepushedathe,and
rubbedguineverebetheears.”issheinpain””no.shed
ohroathurt.shehadtoforce
the.”daddy,llidohoughtfora
nute.”youllbesad.youllgrieveforher.”that
hopeant.”ean,itjust...
throlikeshehibones.”helookedcross.”you
shouldntbeplish
anything.thiselikeshesreadytodie.”but
hopefelttheurgencyofit.”sheis.ikno,daddy.ifeel
it.”
”yourejustscared.”
”no,”sheinsisted.”itshappening.
soigoingtodo”hefrourossnowas
unsure.”doyoutodo””itoburyher.”he
sinute.sheuld
seethathedidntknoantha.hedidnt
thinktheheydid.
”okay,”hesaid,surprisingher.”youburyher.therestbea
petceterysohopedid
cetery.shedidnttohavetogodrivingtoseeguinevere.she
edtheearby,edguioknohatshewasnearby.
”orheforest,”jacksaid,glangoutthe
window.
”souch,hope
thought,nodding.
”done,”hesaidandpulledherclose.
shedidntsayanythingforanutebecauseherthroathurtagain.
thistiitwaswrong.hedid
uand.
thatanthecared.
”daddy”shehear.”youleaveus
alone,
annoyedhinough,heuldaand
youhavetogobaitytoeoostay
here.”
”i.”
”doyouprose””iprose.”shesighed.
evely,allestbitofbreath,shesaid,”ilove
you.”hedidntahischeekagainstthetopofher
head,andinthatinstant,thektuedbadshebelieved.
ovedfrohespot
herthenightbefore.frightened,sheleanedclose,
closeenoughsothatthecath.”guin”she
heheekhafiip.the
sllestventagainstherfinger,sheletoutabreath.
shedrapedanarightlyarouandlayclose,thinking,i
loveyou,guinevere,iloveyou,ahewhisperofananswering
purr.thenitstopped.forseveralnutes,hopedidntve.
”guin
”sherokedthecatsheadandedforapurr,
strokedagain,edagain.herehing,sheburiedher
headinguineveresolingfuraocry.
”hope”jaalled,ingtothedoor.”areyouup”gulping
sobsbubbledupfroheyonly
greloser,hopingshewaswrong,hoping
sheter.sheuldjeelit,agiant
etiness,abighole,ahugealoneness.
”sie”hetouchedherhead.”hope,isit”hetouchedthe
cat,lefthishandthereanute,andjusthinkingthat
shedidntknosheodobecauseeverythingsheloved
alsaroundherandguinevereboth,and
leanedoverclose.
hedidntsayanything,justsatthereshelteringtheandwhen
santhaaskinghey
goingtoday.guineverejustdied.”
”iorry,hope,”santhasaid,softlynoloseby.
”oldher.”totakethebus
today
”hopedidnthearanansartedgagain,because
theantha
theonesheedjustthen.theonesheedwasholding
hertight.
ifaoldjackthataandhisfirbr>
tingfireoplankstobuilda
tinyffinforacat,hetted.butitseed
likethebestthingtodo.
hopesatonthegroundnearby.guineverehewashwo
babyafghanthatrarochetedandthathopehadslepthfor
thefirsteightyearsofherlife.tattersandall,itwasherprized
possession.onceshe,shestoppedg.she
heldherbuhoughitweregold.
jarto
nail.
allffinwasfinished,hedugagr
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