第61节
【】hievenlookedat
hi
hereeredtheanticipationofseeingherandthepleasurewhenhe
did.
ithadbeenthathroughthebirthofthekids.eveheyd
startedtoes
ouchuldstartthetingling.
”hingssobadattheend”heasked,studyingherface.itwas
healingbytheday.herlorproviothinkthat
ious.
hee
pedthegun.gaveuptoosoo
happenhoutenoughofafight.uffgoing.”he
nandbare.”didntwe”he
seareforablinkoratch.
”ikeepthinkingaboutthatbaby.feelingthatloss.thinkingybe
thatadeusyellandsdgetitallout.six
years.awave
ofe,”hee.”
katheriuedintotheroohetookatiredbreath,sighed,
straightened.”ho””notbad.andhere”jack
shrugged.
hefolloothetraytablethathpapers.
”areyougettinge”sheaskedhoutspite.
”nh.ispreadstuffoutaend,butitshardtorate.
oingand
gotacallaboutane.ifihadntbeenrightthere,i
ypartnerhanks,butno
thanks.”
”e.graherearefour
ae,but
itssllerthanstofourretjobs.davidthinksitsastep
backforus.”
”doyouthink””ithink,”hesaid,flexinghisspinesideto
side,”thatitdbeafunjobtodo.
itsinhillsbh.local.thezoningsalldohetknows
etouseivedohepastasa
springboard.i.e.,heethingneaginative.”
katherinenoddedherapproval.jackedtothinkrachelapproved,
too.
hesatbadsled.”so,hoinutehe
saileregistered,andshe
softened.”sentfloerdayafteoon,”shesaid.
”thatsiressive.”shegaveaoneshoulderedshrug.”byro
flouthedarkabout
youknoasbyronhen.”
”youdontthinkbauerisusedtodicalquirks””quirksthats
riinitself.ifhe
dealsedical...quirksalldaylong,
tofaentisthathes
beesoihehenotice.”
”hednotice.”
”aretheythatbad”jatheoutside,
nothingelynothing.
”heyarent,”katherineheyjust...takea
littlegettio.therearescars.”
”feakeittofortyhoutthose.”
”itstheideaofthehing.”
”thatybereinyourndthananyoneelses.”
”possibly.”shepaused.
”his””pushing””thegooddoctorand
.an”jak.”theresaing
questiathered,youandrachelaretwopeasina
pod,verychalike,yes
strong,indepeen”katherinehat.”idsay
so.
””okay.earlyon,isaidthatraeverreallyneeded.you
saidiehoe,thereghtbea
ssageforyou.”diatelyrespond,hesaid,”i
assuyoutalkedaboutit.”
”notinasnyenlikeusdohe
he,likehepoochoose.”
butshegreetistalks
aboutthingsshesses.
””like””helphthegirls.raisingkidsishard.thebigger
theyget,thebiggertheissues.rachelsseshavingyouthereto
talkthingsthroughh.”
”shealwayshadanswers.”
”ybehegidstle.shehadto.youaround,and
littlekidsneediediateresponse.bigkids,bigproblerequire
rethought.
thatsthedisisses.”youaround.well,hewas,
butnotenough.hehadssedsoiortanttisfirls.and
forraore.hecertainly
shouldhaveknothatbaby.heshouldhavecutthattripshort
andeho.ifheedbythelossofthatchildnow,he
uldiginee.
sheshouldhavetoldhiheshouldhavebeenthere.
butifhehadbeenthereforherallalong,sheghthavetoldhi
ae,hesighed.”elsedidshe
ss
””idontknoingearrassed.shepushedher
fihroughherhairfroh,thenshookherhead.”iknow
iss.isssooobeeooshare
eoosharesilence.sharing.iguessthatsit.
idveosaythatrachelssesthat.”
”soundstoshefoundsoofithfaithbligh.sharingthe
silenceoverffee.”
”notthesa.theressothingaboutlyingieatnightor
very,veryearlyintheing,talking,silent,ory
hadjakthere,lyinges,
ingfeherbetheyhad
ended.”itwasa
stouse.katherinesarh.
youketiforyou,rachelhadsaidondshehad
tried.herecalledatiatripinthe
evening.shehiredababysitteranddereservationsatpostrio
upattheairportanddrovehibr>
there.heproceededtotellherthathehadeatenattheplacesix
tisinthanduldodoitagain.
hehadssedthepoint,butsubstance.herealized
thatnohnoprideatall.
”isstakingvacationshrachel,”heoffered.
heissesbeingpaeredon
awhile.”
”strong,indepeenneedpaering””an,too.”
”anynsufficeforthat.”sheshookherhead.”oain
osan...intangiblexsothing.an
enandfallforonlyone.aanh
fiftynandfallforonlyone.knoheansw
...
hi
hereeredtheanticipationofseeingherandthepleasurewhenhe
did.
ithadbeenthathroughthebirthofthekids.eveheyd
startedtoes
ouchuldstartthetingling.
”hingssobadattheend”heasked,studyingherface.itwas
healingbytheday.herlorproviothinkthat
ious.
hee
pedthegun.gaveuptoosoo
happenhoutenoughofafight.uffgoing.”he
nandbare.”didntwe”he
seareforablinkoratch.
”ikeepthinkingaboutthatbaby.feelingthatloss.thinkingybe
thatadeusyellandsdgetitallout.six
years.awave
ofe,”hee.”
katheriuedintotheroohetookatiredbreath,sighed,
straightened.”ho””notbad.andhere”jack
shrugged.
hefolloothetraytablethathpapers.
”areyougettinge”sheaskedhoutspite.
”nh.ispreadstuffoutaend,butitshardtorate.
oingand
gotacallaboutane.ifihadntbeenrightthere,i
ypartnerhanks,butno
thanks.”
”e.graherearefour
ae,but
itssllerthanstofourretjobs.davidthinksitsastep
backforus.”
”doyouthink””ithink,”hesaid,flexinghisspinesideto
side,”thatitdbeafunjobtodo.
itsinhillsbh.local.thezoningsalldohetknows
etouseivedohepastasa
springboard.i.e.,heethingneaginative.”
katherinenoddedherapproval.jackedtothinkrachelapproved,
too.
hesatbadsled.”so,hoinutehe
saileregistered,andshe
softened.”sentfloerdayafteoon,”shesaid.
”thatsiressive.”shegaveaoneshoulderedshrug.”byro
flouthedarkabout
youknoasbyronhen.”
”youdontthinkbauerisusedtodicalquirks””quirksthats
riinitself.ifhe
dealsedical...quirksalldaylong,
tofaentisthathes
beesoihehenotice.”
”hednotice.”
”aretheythatbad”jatheoutside,
nothingelynothing.
”heyarent,”katherineheyjust...takea
littlegettio.therearescars.”
”feakeittofortyhoutthose.”
”itstheideaofthehing.”
”thatybereinyourndthananyoneelses.”
”possibly.”shepaused.
”his””pushing””thegooddoctorand
.an”jak.”theresaing
questiathered,youandrachelaretwopeasina
pod,verychalike,yes
strong,indepeen”katherinehat.”idsay
so.
””okay.earlyon,isaidthatraeverreallyneeded.you
saidiehoe,thereghtbea
ssageforyou.”diatelyrespond,hesaid,”i
assuyoutalkedaboutit.”
”notinasnyenlikeusdohe
he,likehepoochoose.”
butshegreetistalks
aboutthingsshesses.
””like””helphthegirls.raisingkidsishard.thebigger
theyget,thebiggertheissues.rachelsseshavingyouthereto
talkthingsthroughh.”
”shealwayshadanswers.”
”ybehegidstle.shehadto.youaround,and
littlekidsneediediateresponse.bigkids,bigproblerequire
rethought.
thatsthedisisses.”youaround.well,hewas,
butnotenough.hehadssedsoiortanttisfirls.and
forraore.hecertainly
shouldhaveknothatbaby.heshouldhavecutthattripshort
andeho.ifheedbythelossofthatchildnow,he
uldiginee.
sheshouldhavetoldhiheshouldhavebeenthere.
butifhehadbeenthereforherallalong,sheghthavetoldhi
ae,hesighed.”elsedidshe
ss
””idontknoingearrassed.shepushedher
fihroughherhairfroh,thenshookherhead.”iknow
iss.isssooobeeooshare
eoosharesilence.sharing.iguessthatsit.
idveosaythatrachelssesthat.”
”soundstoshefoundsoofithfaithbligh.sharingthe
silenceoverffee.”
”notthesa.theressothingaboutlyingieatnightor
very,veryearlyintheing,talking,silent,ory
hadjakthere,lyinges,
ingfeherbetheyhad
ended.”itwasa
stouse.katherinesarh.
youketiforyou,rachelhadsaidondshehad
tried.herecalledatiatripinthe
evening.shehiredababysitteranddereservationsatpostrio
upattheairportanddrovehibr>
there.heproceededtotellherthathehadeatenattheplacesix
tisinthanduldodoitagain.
hehadssedthepoint,butsubstance.herealized
thatnohnoprideatall.
”isstakingvacationshrachel,”heoffered.
heissesbeingpaeredon
awhile.”
”strong,indepeenneedpaering””an,too.”
”anynsufficeforthat.”sheshookherhead.”oain
osan...intangiblexsothing.an
enandfallforonlyone.aanh
fiftynandfallforonlyone.knoheansw
...